So today I find that I am falling into melancholy. Not sure why it is happening; perhaps the constant questions, perhaps it is fear. Fear that I will embarrass the ones I love. Fear that I am damaging my wife who would be better off without me, even my kids would be better off without me; they are so innocent, I hope the florish in their mother's beautiful glow. I feel hater; even hate myself. Am going to coach youth football, I look forward to that. If my melancholy gets worst I will call my doc. I am so emotionally tired of not knowing how to feel or when to feel it. Am I depressed like any other person, am I happy like other people. It is hard, and it sucks, and it is,,,Bipolar disorder.
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